My all time favorite books


What’s your favorite possession?



Books bring me right back to how tangible life is, yet at the same time, allow me to indulge myself in the unreachable dreams. I can lay on my bed all day long, and read my favorite book without even flinch. But, it takes more than just 50 Shades of Grey!

I am fond of a book that is deeply moving, or that is taking me somewhere unexpected. Like, every page is making me feel on edge and overwhelmed with mixed emotions. Sometimes, I had to stop gripping the page and took a breath. That shows how I’m hooked.

At times, I can’t help but wanting to grow together with the characters. I pictured how they are supposed to be growing.

Often, I stuck with the idea that everyone should be looking forward to read life-changing books. The realization hit me, sometimes all we need is a rom-com of all time or a gory-horror stories.

With that said, your favorite books shouldn’t be just life-changing. Be true to yourself and acknowledge your favorite.

Let’s get into it, my four favorite books!

1. The Time of My Life by Cecelia Ahern 


The woman who are neglecting her life and living in lies. She lied to her friends letting them know that she dumped her boyfriend, Blake. She doesn’t enjoy doing her job, no one knows she doesn’t know how to speak Spanish yet she writes manuals for electrical appliances in foreign languages.

Lucy’s pretentious life is very relatable, isn’t? Nothing uncommon about her, she could be you, a woman who’s giving up and uninspired. What makes me flipped to the next page? When she is signed up with a life agency. Nah, not a life insurance agency, sweethearts. 

She has to meet Life despite her persistent avoidance. Finally, *drumroll*, she meet life. Life is a man, who seems like he hadn’t brush his teeth in a while, with a bad breath. To make it more worst, he wear a wrinkled suit, with dishevelled hair, not to forget his hands are clammy. Need I say more?

Lucy’s Mum: Is he handsome?

Lucy: Mum, that’s disgusting, he’s my life.

I wonder what if my life shows up one day, would he has unbrushed hair or wear stinky clothes?

Not gonna give away spoilers! Just a little more, Lucy’s life can change depending on Lucy’s choices. He could be wearing a non-wrinkled shirt but in return, Lucy has to do something for her life. 

Hats off to Ahern for a thought-provoking character!

2. It Ends with Us by Collen Hover 


It began perfectly, but it’s the only book that I couldn’t even finish in a day. Because it’s the most heart wrenching book ever. I have no idea how many time I cried throughout reading the book. It’s too heavy, too personal and it touches the most taboo subject in the universe.

As a Malaysian, I hardly come across a book that open up your eyes on how terrible this issue is. People hate to talk about domestic violence, as if it’s the most disgusting issue. 

Lily, she married a perfect man, a man who has a reputable career, neurosurgeon.  She’s like no other, falling in love too hard, and yes it’s the best feeling ever. Until one day, she can’t keep on holding onto the love she once had for her husband, Ryle. It’s not because he cheated on her, but he abuses her. To make it more worst, she’s pregnant. On top of that, her first love comes back in her life.

What I really love about Lily’s character is, she’s the kind of woman who makes decision for the sake of her future, she left Ryle despite she knows that deep in her heart, she still loves him. After all, love isn’t enough if Ryle still hasn’t change. And she learns from the past, she realizes how devastated her life was, having an abusive father. 

I reckon this is the most devastated part in the book, years of dating or how well you know your other half won’t guarantee that he’s the one you’ve been looking for. It’s true what people told me, you’ll really know him once you sleep under the same roof and sleep in the same bed. 

Don’t call yourself a bookworm if you never read Collen Hoover’s. Honestly, I have no idea how she can pull off every single book she wrote.

3. The Girl You Left Behind by Jojo Moyes


Well, who doesn’t know Moyes? The woman behind the famous, Me Before You! Okay, you must wondering why not ‘Me Before You’ right?

Well, this book merges 2 stories, and the 2 stories revolve around a beguile painting. It’s not easy for anyone to give a fair share to four main characters in the book. Somehow, it works!

The woman in the portrait, Lucy, was left by her husband, Edouard, who decided to fight for the country, France.

She has to survive living under the German Army surveillance. However, ever since a German commandant is enthralled by the painting, she started to plan her escape. To be honest, I believe he secretly falls for her, not just her beauty or her portrait in the painting.

I am left with questions, he offers her a help to be with her husband again, in return, she has to give him the painting. The painting is like her most personal belonging, she gives it anyway.

Why I can’t wait to flip to the next page? Because I want to know how could her painting is now in Liv’s bedroom, Liv is the woman in the 2000s. She got it as a gift from her late husband. But, her life turns upside down when Edouard’s family claims that their family is the legitimate owner of the painting.  

If only he wasn’t staring at her portrait throughout his whole life, the painting wouldn’t be in Liz’s room!

P/S: My best friend hasn’t return the book (almost a year, grrr…)

4. If I break by Portia Moore


It’s definitely a book that makes you cursing inside! Because don’t you think it’s weird when a husband isn’t cheating but he doesn’t come home? And he’s so believable despite of days and weeks he left her alone wondering what’s his secret.

Full of surprises and nothing I expected was right! When I read this book, I could feel the frustration and anger that Lauren feels. It feels strange, Cal, he seems like he loves her to death, however when he arrives home after days or weeks leaving her, he turns to be a jerk, it’s like something wears him out.

It’s getting worse when he left her for almost two years and she already gave birth to their daughter. Still, she’s sitting there crying and pining away for him! 

“I woke up to hear Caylen crying on the baby monitor. When I tried to go to her, I realized that my door was locked. Then I heard Cal talking to her. I couldn’t get to her; I couldn’t get out.” Why does he comes home but avoiding seeing his wife?

I expected that he’s in undercover or he has a wife and kids somewhere. But… there’s a picture of a man looks exactly like Cal named Chris Scott with an older man posed for an annual pie eating contest.

That’s when Lauren’s life is turned upside down, her husband doesn’t recognise her, and he met a girl within the 2 years he left Lauren. Need I say more? 

Truthfully, I don’t expect him to be  someone who’s having a split personality disorder. Oops, sorry for the obvious spoiler!


Now, I am curious about your four favorite possessions? I choose books over anything else, they’re always there, when I’m lost, uninspired, depressed, happy, enthusiastic and even busy.  The meaning of book, for me, is life. I can’t imagine my life without it. The longer I read books, the more love I have for them.

P/S: My fellow Malaysians, I know it would be hard to instill the interest to read, slowly but surely. Remember, there’s nothing wrong with starting late, as you get older, you need to read more than just Facebook status or Twitter tweets!




Why I can’t move on & why he came back


I cry almost everyday, and sometimes, it was too hurting, like the whole body is crying. Crying in the foetal position on the bed for hours, and wiping the snot and tears from my face, everyday – A routine within the 2 months.


Breaking up hurts. There’s no word can describe the lingering wound he left in me. However, I choose to go through the process with maturity. Maturity is when I allow myself grieving the loss of a lover. And maturity is to not force myself to fall out of love. 

The truth is, I would never say goodbye to him. I never stop loving him. Loving him prevents me from moving forward. It’s not wrong to keep on loving someone, it goes wrong when you do let it controls you.

I believe, time is the best healer. And I know that one day, I have to let him go. But now, I’m still waiting for him to come back to me, on the other hand, I’ll let the love in, I’ll allow myself to fall in love again.

I only experienced heartbroken once before this recent relationship. But, it was when I was eighteen. I thought, it took almost 5 years for me to really move on. Turns out, it’s not that I still had a feeling for him within the 5 years. 

I was just being thoroughly careful with my decision and choices. When it comes to love, I’m the kind of person who doesn’t take risk. I’m afraid of choosing a wrong man, and who wants a relationship that won’t last long? With that said, yes I could have moved on way earlier than 5 years, but I hindered myself from moving on.

Deep down I knew back than that he wasn’t the one, we never talked about marriage, he never really asked about my family, he called me when he had free times, he was just there, not that he really cared about me, never even once he wanted to declare our relationship. It was an unrequited teenage love I had for him. 

But it was nothing compare to now. This is toughest breakup I had. Indescribable, that’s the word, I have no idea how to describe the pain.

Perhaps, because we had been planning our future together, where would be the wedding ceremony and when would it be. He would move to Kuala Lumpur, get a job that suits him here, and travel to countless of places we both love. Picturing our home, and talking about how lovely it would be to have kids, how do they look like. 

That’s just a plan, it doesn’t sound convincing, but it certainly feels right. 

I’m writing it now because I can’t keep it to myself anymore. That I have faked everything, I can’t even move on. I can’t sleep at night without crying. I have faked it in front of everyone. I’m faking it in front of my family. I only told my 2 sisters, 2 weeks ago, via texts. 

Everyday, for a month I was so miserable, I cried myself to sleep knowing that I might lose an amazing man for good. It’s more than a month he went away. But, how could I still have such a strong feeling that he’s the one for me? 

Sometimes, when you thought you’ve got everything figured out. It wasn’t. It wasn’t supposed to be the way you want it to be. Sometimes, you have such a strong feeling that it’s meant to be. But, it’s actually the opposite. You might not see it now though the signs are always there.

Above are the words I pen down weeks before he came back. Alhamdulillah, he’s back to me now. This time around, I have a word for it, grateful. 

I never chased a man like I chased after him. People say, never chase someone who left you, well, in my situation, I was the one who walked away first. Of course, he didn’t chase after me, because he thought that was what I wanted. Thank god, me being me, when I want something too badly, I would do everything to get to it. 

“I’ve been running through the jungle
I’ve been running with the wolves
To get to you, to get to you…”

I was about to stop chasing after him few days before the last attempt getting him back. Until one day, he decided to talk to me again. I was a bit reluctant creating the newest fake snapchat account, knowing that he never added me, basically all he did was ignoring me at his best. Truthfully, that was the happiest moment in my life, after more than 5 snapchat accounts I created for the sake of winning his heart back, he finally stopped ignoring my efforts.

 “But then, I got your messages and friend requests so I guess I wanted to see how you were and what you were feeling.” – Him 

The almost 2 months of break up opened up a space for both of us to reflect on ourselves, It had made me stronger in facing with his rejection, it had made him stronger in letting me go.

Because, there was no point of having a perfect boyfriend, happiest relationship if we never shed a tear, or have an intense argument over things. Yes, we had a tremendous blast from the first day we met each other to the day I asked for a break up. I guess, the almost 2 months apart from each other was supposed to be happened.

If not, I hadn’t come into realization that in relationship, it’s more than just a love,  more than accepting his imperfections, more than offering endless supports, It needs a mutual understanding, and understanding is all about communication. Communicate, talk, speak up, and voice out everything that are running through our mind.

Some people drift apart for no apparent reason despite of being so near to each other, why should I leave him when our love is still like a fire?

Instead of  crafting long texts saying goodbye, I should reveal everything, why I was so afraid of losing him. I feared we wouldn’t be able to be together. And he shouldn’t remain silent when reading those texts, he should question me why I wanted to leave him.

However, everyone deals with the after effect of a break up differently.

This is him: I love you so much that I want you to be happy, even if that happiness no longer includes me.

And this is me: It’s not going to be easy. It’s going to be really hard. And we’re going to have to work on this every day, but I want to do that because I want you.

Because, he is a well worth fighting for. Never in a million years I would chase after someone. Hmm, I guess, I should ditch all the pledges I’ve made to myself. Not that I complain!

I questioned myself, why him? He’s busy working, we never go on a date, we’re far from each other, he rarely have a day off, while he’s awake I’m about to sleep, we’re 12 hours apart… and etc.  We’re two people who’re happy together and most likely being apart from each other is miserable. 

I want him, he wants me, we have to work on this everyday, well, Noah’s words are surely overly romantic and only existed in a movie. But, it’s so true, don’t wait, if you want her/ him, get your ass over there, don’t just sit on your sofa reading The Notebook and waiting.

There’s no definite assurance that one day I’ll wake up next to him, but there’s always a tiny assurance to those who don’t give up on love. There’s no dying there would bumps in the road, I can’t keep on dodging them in the hope it won’t be any problem. 


Love is like a box of pizza, you’ll know what you’re going to get, yet, it’s never enough. – Nana

When you eat a slice of pizza, it’s exhilarating, the next slice would still be exhilarating, but the third slice might be a little deteriorating, and when it reaches the fourth one, it could be the mixture of both.

Often, deteriorating love can’t be fixed. If it’s a mixture of both, exhilarating and deteriorating, save it, find as many as possible way to make it flavourful again.



My Top 5 Nicholas Sparks Movie Ranking


Can someone hand me a box of tissue?


Watching Nicholas Sparks’ movies for the weekend isn’t a good choice for someone to move on. I had no plan to watch any romance movie in the recent time. But, for the sake of Spark’s movie ranking, I sacrificed my eyes.

When you’re into romance books, you had a high expectation for the movies adapted from you favorite books. I’m fairly certain that if you read all Sparks books before watching the movies, you would be anticipating the indescribable chemistry between the lead actors. Yet, you wish to see a very refreshing scenes that’ll stick to your brain. 


Kissing in the rain, canoeing in a lake, sending love letters, disapproving parents are so synonym with Sparks! As you read this, it reminds you of Noah and Allie. Safe to say that their on-screen chemistry are too good to be denied. Well, even I still have my undying crush on Ryan Gosling just because of The Notebook.

For someone who’re always immersed herself in a movie, she’ll notice that John and Savannah wrote letters to each other, Alex asked Katie to go canoeing with him, Will’s mother shows her disapproval of his relationship with Ronnie. *Sigh*

Let’s cut the crap. It’s time for the ranking. Number 1 goes to…

1. The Best of Me


The sweetest scene I love in the movie

Spark’s movie that I watched more than The Notebook. Well, no doubt James Marsden and his scruffy face make me drooling throughout the whole movie.

Though the love story is a bit cliché, rich girl falls for poor boy. To make it more ironic, Dawson comes from drug-dealing family. Then here comes the parents disapproval… oh yeah a kissing scene in the rain too. lol.

When I first watched the trailer, I couldn’t seem to guess what’s all about. 

Any romance movie that involves with years of separation surely entice me to keep on waiting the day they’ll cross path again (Girls always be girls, expecting the happily ever after) 

To make girls cry, heartbreaking ending will do. I didn’t expect Dawson to be dead at the end. “I lost you once, I’m not going to lose you again.” When your long-lost bf tells you this, course it kind of guarantees that he’s not going anywhere. 

Death does happen in real life, and it could be the number 1 reason you’re not meant to be together with you lover. I can’t say no to any movie with a realistic twist. 

2. A walk to remember

The very first Sparks movie that I watched. Who could say no to a movie of a dying teenager who just fall in love with the infamous bad boy.

Not to mention, who could say no to Shane West, I mean Landon, believe it or not, he’s the forever bad boy you’ll have a crush on. I was in high school watching the movie and I wished there’s famous bad boy with that laid-back attitude and a crooked smile.

And Jamie’s character as a religious teenager is brilliant idea to set off Sparks movies in 2000’s. Because we hardly see a movie with a lead actress like Jamie.


When someone tells you to not fall in love with her, she knows you’ll and you know you’ll. Well, don’t you feel it always happens in real life. Love is funny sometimes, you know you can’t be together, yet you don’t want to stop loving her. 

The word ‘scared’ – the movie depicts the fear of losing people we love. 

Jamie: “You know the real reason why you’re so scared?” Landon: “It’s because you want to be with me too. 

Jamie: “I’m scared of not being with you”  Landon: “Oh baby that will never happen”

A quite decent movie! Very brief kissing scenes, and there’s no sex scene, still, people would watch it over and over again. Because love is love after all, you don’t have to come out with sex scene to make people realize it’s love.

Love is indeed can’t be seen. ‘But our love, is like the wind, I can’t see it, I can feel it.

3. The Last Song

Not the most romantic movie I’ve ever watched. But, it moves my heart with its own way. When I’m in the mood, I would slip under my blanket, turn off the light, and immerse myself in it.

And again, the cliché teenage love story. A rich boy falls for a normal girl. She’s not blonde, at some point, she was insecure of his playboy past.

As usual, Nana is a forever fan girl of those hot male celeb out there, It’s freaking Liam everyone! 

Perhaps, because it portrays the love between a father and a daughter. Or the quotes that you wish they come out from your mouth. At times, I feel like I’m Ronnie, I tend to push people away. People who I love the most. 

“Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn’t make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more.” 

This movie is something real, it opens my eyes to see the things I refuse to see before.


The part where Ronnie finally read her father’s letters, shows that love letter isn’t just about you and you boyfriend. 

5. The Longest Ride

Love letters. Again. However, Sparks makes a twist with this one. It works, partially, entirely? Nay. A cowboy and a city girl falls for each other? Not so surprise, Sparks’ masterpiece is all about love from the different world. 

What made me stayed throughout the movie? It’s all about the true love between Ira & Ruth! They may not be the lead couples, but they touch my heart more than the other. You’ll feel like you’re one of them, that you’re in love.

Ruth wants lots of children and Ira is unable to father a child because he suffers from the war injury. I can’t believe such love exists, Ira let Ruth leaves him to have the happiness in the world. Hoping that she’ll have children. 


Appreciate your other half despite of she/ he has nothing to offer except love. Love wins everything. Always. 

5. The Notebook

Noah sent Allie 365 letters, for a year.  He built Allie a house. He waited Allie to come back to her though it took her to fall for another guy. Tell me what’s more tragic than this? And Allie’s mother kept the letters from her.

The fact that Allie falls for another guy and come back to him, that’s the reason The Notebook is not my number 1. The Notebook is too good to be true, it’s too tragic to some extent, I’m afraid I might not be able to wait for him like Noah did. 

The fact that Noah is willing to wait for her for years is what’s everyone looks forward in a romance movie. Love is all about being in that together, nobody says it’s easy, it may be hard. But if you want her, you’ll cross the ocean for her.


And what’s more romantic than watching Noah reads to her when she doesn’t even remember him?  True love withstands the test of time, not everyone can ignite the spark after years of relationship. I believe, elderly couples do, in fact, they might not even realize they do.

Done, my 5 favorite Sparks movies! Comment below what’s your favorites! 

How can I stop crying if this what I’m talking about? While it might not always be easy to wait for someone, not knowing what he feels, no one can halt me from hoping. I don’t know why but I believe he still loves me, it’s only a month, how can he lose the feeling? 

The scariest thing about distance is, he might forget me, he might be dating someone now. What if he loses weight and girls fall for him? Will he falls for any of them? I wish Sparks comes across my blog and makes a book or a movie out of it. 





Who can say no to sweet tooth?


I wasn’t a huge fan of sweet sugary food, I would say I won’t choose a slice of cake over a pizza or burger! But, I came from a state which is so synonym with sugar. People would never set apart Kelantan from sweet food. Normally, it gives the bad impression of my hometown. Not that it’s too bad, just it’s not good for one’s health.

When I was studying in Kedah & Sarawak, my friends would always question me, ‘Why you aren’t like the typical Kelantanese?’ It wasn’t a bad question, but I’m so tired of answering the irrational question? Do you get me?

Trust me, not every family in Kelantan favors sweet food. We’re brought up differently. We’re all Malaysian, but not all of us aren’t time conscious. Isn’t it? Same goes to Kelantanese. My parents are both Kelantanese, they didn’t prefer sweet food, even if when my mom made tradisional ‘Kuih‘, the taste weren’t overly sweet, it didn’t make me drinking while eating.

I’m not considered as a fussy eater because I eat anything, however when it comes to sweet food – kuih, cakes, puddings, cookies, pastries, or ice-cream; my tongue can’t tolerate too much sweetness. Some people like me can’t stand it. Still, once in a while who could say NO to sugar? 


It’s me & Salted Caramel Cake

My BFF popped out a question about ‘Which kuih I love to eat the most’? I believe, no matter how far we go, how urban we are, how young we are, we’ll always have at least one favorite kuih! Growing up in a very small town introduced me to how delectable the tradisional kuih.

When my mom was younger, she used to sell kuih. She would prepare variety of kuih early in the morning and delivered them to the nearest school and stall. I don’t really remember all the kuihs’ names but it’s okay, I’m waiting for my older siblings to reply my text. Just so you know, I’m eating a kuih now, kuih bingka labu!

If you happen to drive around Shah Alam, Seksyen 13, you’ll right away notice a huge sign board named ‘KUEH‘ on the front of black colour restaurant. Omg, you should visit the place. You won’t regret.


Here’s the inside

At first, I was like, ‘Normally there’re FEW hipster cafes/ restaurants that serve tasteless food. Look aren’t really everything! Numerous hipster cafes out there tried too hard to be the most hipster cafes. Yes, they have gone viral but how long will they stay in the industry with such lack of quality food?

Insatiable craving for kuih so badly made me asked my siblings where could I get extremely exquisite tradisional kuih. No one gave the answer when I was asking whether there’s any  famous street stall owns by an elderly. Sometimes, I’m skeptical of the young owners. Not that I don’t think they’re a good cook. I’m so immersed with the idea that elderly knows how to cook basically everything.

See, the thing about believe is that, sometimes, it’s never right. As a first-timer, if I went there again the next day, means KUEH is a success. The taste was impeccable, like you went back to 1990’s. The best part is, they’re not too sweet, it’s brilliant, because to cater for the people from different states and countries, one’s ought to improvise the sweetness.


I was rushing so wasn’t able to take lots of pictures there.

I’ve never thought that someone would go all out to commercialise tradisional Malaysian Kuih in the world of insta-worthy food. The kuihs may not look like any insta-worthy food to look down upon, but they’re the definition of the real drool-worthy. They prove that they don’t have to look any different to win your tummy. Hats off to the owner!

Now, let’s see the 20 kuih that I’ll be forever in love with *drumroll*

1. Cek Mek Molek

2. Kuih Topi

3. Kuih Puteri Ayu

4. Kuih Bom

5. Tepung Pelita

6. Kuih Ketayap

7. Kuih Keria

8. Tepung Bungkus

9.  Akok

10. Kuih Cara Manis

11. Nek Bak

12. Kuih Koci

13. Lompat Tikam

14. Kuih Butir Nangka

15. Kuih Peria

16. Onde-Onde

17. Putu Mayam

18. Kuih Kosui

19. Kuih Sagu

20. Kuih Kura-kura

So, what’s your favorite Malaysian kuihs? You can find most of above kuihs at KUEH. These what I had for the first time I went there – The green-white layers is Puteri Ayu, the ball look alike is Kuih Bom, The white in banana leaf is Tepung Pelita, the huge one is Kuih Topi (it looks like hat) and I don’t know the name of the kuih covered with sugar. Lol. 


Yesterday, I went there again due to the traffic was very congested. I chose to hang out at KUEH instead of any cafe that has WIFI. At least, I was able to finish up some works. I bought Kuih Peria (the red one), Kuih Puteri Ayu again, Kuih Kura-Kura (the yellow one), Kuih cara Berlauk (with the meat-stuffed), and kuih kasturi.


How I wish I know how to describe the ‘kuih-making’! Basically, I can differentiate between the fried or steamed kuih. I can describe the texture; it’s either fluffy, chewy, powdery… And I might know what are the ingredients; it could be grated coconut, red beans, dark palm sugar (gula melaka)… But if you ask me, what kind of flour to use to make the dough, I’m doomed. Or how to prepare the kuih, I’m doomed again. Instead of indulging the kuih, I have to learn how to make the kuih.

At some point, I was thinking, we shouldn’t leave the traditional kuih behind. So, my latest mission would be learning how to make kuih. My sisters aren’t constantly making them these days but I believe they know how to make it. 

And it’s funny how I’m talking about kuih now. When I first started this blog, I was only into giving my two cents on the concerning issue in Malaysia. Come to think of it, I love writing too much to waste it. That’s why I just craft any write-up regardless of the topic. 




Which one should I write?


1. Food I can’t say no to!

2. My ultimate book-boyfriends (yummylicious)!

3. My favorite cringe-worthy moments in Korean Dramas!

4. My British celeb crush!

5. Books I cry myself to sleep!

6. Nicholas Sparks’ movies ranking!

7. My guilty pleasures!

8. Movies I would want to watch over and over again!

9. 90’s songs I listen to!

10. My ideal type guy! 😉

10 things people don’t know about Nana


What are the things people might not know about me?

So I was writing another write-up, as usual, my partner in crime, my BFF aka my work partner, randomly asked some questions about me, like, the things people do not know about me. So, here you go… my blogs should have some fun too, can’t be serious all the freaking time.

1. I have 3 birthmarks, they were on my right knee, near my belly button, and on my back.

2. I didn’t know how to ride bicycle until I was 11.

3. I don’t eat people favorite’s food like half cooked egg and sapodilla (ciku).

4. I broke my hand when I was 6. (Because I tried to tie the curtain while climbing the chair).

5. I eat the most bitter vegetable, bitter melon that people don’t like to eat.

6. I have a slightly fractured middle finger because my finger was trapped between the door and the floor. Also when I was 6

7. When I was in college, there were only 2 girls named Raihana aside from me.

8. I never played PlayStation .

9. My parents gave me 50 cents for my pocket money when I was in primary school.

10. My car broke down in the middle of the night in city area and 3 men helped me but I would never tell my oldest sister.



Move on tips from the freshly heartbroken Nana!


You know what’s the most painful feeling a human will go through? When you force yourself to fall out of love. Because your relationship is no longer a relationship you could be dreamed of. We can’t never get everything we want. 

Perhaps, the relationship isn’t fated to be yours. Heartbreak is extremely painful (If only I could show you my swollen-eyes…) Everyone would go through this, at least once. They had moved on. It could be years, months or just few weeks to move on. But, they did. Nothing comes easy, it took times and extra efforts to move forward, to carry on your life while wondering how does it goes for him. 

Move on. You can’t stop moving forward. It’s hard, but you have to force yourself. Don’t force too hard, be a little loose on yourself. 

Accept the fact that it comes to an end. Love doesn’t guarantee any relationship stays forever. Sometimes, it’s not because he stops loving you, if it’s meant to end, It would.

Girls, stop begging him to stay. Stop dwelling on the reasons he got away. Stop wondering why he chose to walk away. 

I survive. My heart might not fully heal yet, but I’m not going to dwell on the past. I’m going to move on, to continue living my life to the fullest.

Living your life to the fullest doesn’t mean you have to forget the past. It doesn’t mean you have to get rid of the memories from your mind, be a little loose remember? Let the memories stay, but, accept the fact that the moments were temporary, because that’s how the universe works. You have to experience losses, heartbreak, rejection & failure. 

Living your life to the fullest proves that you’re strong enough to let go of something that isn’t meant to be yours at the first. It proves that you finally believe that not everything you lost are your losses. 

Ouch! Enough with the teary eyes. Let me bring you to the paradise of moving on! 


1. STOP watching any kind of romance movies or TV series!

Don’t ask me why! Because it will bring you back to the moments you don’t want to remember. Watch fun games show on TV. Do not ever watch The Bachelor kind of reality show! Believe it or not, The Bachelor is a huge setback for you to move forward. It won’t heal your lonely-broken heart and far from make it easier. And cliche-romance-scenes might trigger you to find a rebound at instant. And you don’t need that, trust me. Falling in love should come naturally. It should be your fun time girls. It’s time for you to laugh your ass off. My suggestion would go to everyone’s favorite Korean Reality TV Show, Running man. 


2. Constantly making times for your passions!

Don’t tell me you don’t have at least one passion! But, If you don’t, it’s normal. There are people out there who’re still confused on the difference between hobby & passion. Perhaps, it’s time for your passion discovery. Passion is not just about the things you believe you’re good at. It’s a passion when you aren’t really good at it, but no matter how costly or time-consuming for you to become better at it, you’ll try to make time. It’s beyond efforts or money you’ve sacrificed. You’ll realize it’s your passion when you don’t feel like wasting your time, and you crave to do it if it’s been a while. Above all, you’ll know it’s not a passion if you aren’t happy. Happiness is the key! You know what I’m super-duper happy about? Writing, reading, cooking pasta, food hunting, and travel (due to the very unavoidable time & financial contrast, I have to put aside my travel bucket list. Anyone wants to give me free tickets to anywhere in this world? 

3. Learn something NEW!

You would never go wrong with learning or trying something new! What’s your latest new thing? Mine, It would be inventing a new pasta sauce. I don’t even know what should I name it, and the most fun part is, I enjoyed myself doing that. When you come out with a new creation, a new idea or a new invention. It’s a proof you’re loving yourself by discovering your hidden potential. So, what are you waiting for? Get your ass somewhere. No, I am not kidding. Now, learn new thing, it doesn’t waste your time, take risk. You can’t be good at everything but you can try everything! 

P/S: Should I learn how to crimp a curry puff? Because I’ve tried buckets of time, yet, they never looked like a curry puff. Don’t lose hope Nana. It doesn’t hurt me to try, right? 


4. Go on a food hunting! 

Omg, this is my forever favorite! Who could say no to Cendol, Kuih Keria, Apam Balik, Roti Canai, & Malaysian FoodYou should eat like Dean, looks like he couldn’t help but grabbing a mouthful of burrito. Just remember to tone down a little bit on the staring part. Instead of spending your money on romance movie tickets, it’s better off this way. 😉 Don’t be afraid of gaining weight, you could handle it afterwards, the more important thing is, you should devour scrumptious Malaysian food before you’re getting old. I know you’re getting older, you might have to cut off the consumption of spicy and sugary food. But as for now, welcome food with warm hands. Food is world’s wonder after all.

Hmmm… I’m thinking of going to food hunting this weekend, where should I head to? Ipoh anyone? 


5. Have a short escape (preferably fun)!

Come on, who could resist a chance to have a few days off! Pack your bag, buy a walk-in ticket, and pick a location. Malaysia has countless of short-getaway places girls! Choose what’s your favorite, solo trip or BFF road trip. Then, you’re ready to go. Embrace your short escape moments, I reckon it’s better to turn off the phone! Fill your day with lots of activities. Well, exclude the girl’s talk session! It’s a huge concern that’ll lead you on conversing about your ex. And girls, you aren’t living life to the fullest if you aren’t checking out hot foreigner dudes! It’s my favorite, anytime, anywhere. Haha. Let’s cut the crap, have you watch The Secret Life of Walter Mitty? If you haven’t, you should. My all time favorite. “Life is about courage and going into the unknown” 

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6. Make some changes! 

Again, a tough decision to make, but when we’ve done 1 change, we would be addicted. Truthfully, the decision I’d made to cut off my waist length hair to chest length to bob cut in a month, it wasn’t solely because of the hair falls. Breaking up with him was one of the reason. Never get it wrong, changes is amazing. I felt good cutting my hair off though I’m so into wavy-long hair. It has shown me that I’m able to cope with the changes. Thus, now I know why I’m able to hide my heartbreak tears in front of my family. Because I choose to go through this heartbreak with maturity. 

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The 6 easy and thoughtful tips from the girl who’re in the moving on phase. Oh yeah, why I didn’t tell you to delete his numbers, texts or social media? Because you should have done that way before coming across my blog!

Take back the shattered pieces of your heart, don’t try to fix it if it doesn’t match. It’s hurting way more than when it’s broken. – Nana